As I’ve been reading this series so far I sense this is a journey into my own life since birth. Where & how sin, or separateness from God, entered into my life. The ways are numerous. Separateness & lack of devotion to God is everywhere even among those who grew up in a Christ devoted home. There’s always lack in the world & in people yet we look to humans as our first representations of God. This is why I have great respect & realize the immense responsibility parents have in influencing their children. My parents failed, in many ways, at teaching me to turn to God & rely solely on Him so I took that failed reliance into the world. I demanded & expected others to fill in the gaps, the God gaps, that they left. Now I’m not blaming them for damaging me. They were damaged coming into relationship with me & hurt people, hurt people. Broken people, break people. God knew this about His creation when He made it. He didn’t make a bunch of equals to Himself. He created children & children needs their Parent. In this scenario though He IS the perfect Parent who never leaves a gap or fails at anything we need.
In the situation regarding the gaps my parents left, I’ve acknowledged their failings & the harm that caused me & have turned my unmet needs to my Perfect Father. This is a form of forgiveness, a pardon, let them off the hook for being God. I’ve turned my attention & focus toward God for all that I need & He has not let me down. He has made me wait patiently but never let me down. I have to fix my eyes & heart on Him, that’s my part especially in the patient part, which is a lot. I’ve just not found a better way. Looking to others & the world to give me something that only He can provide has been a bust. Also as a result of this forgiveness, or pardoning, I can love & appreciate others & the world the way God through Christ loves me. This is freedom. I’m grateful for this & other thought provoking writings that help me come back to Who my center is.
Bulls in shops stacked to the ceiling with the most delicate Limoges. Sin - which is a condition- is one supremely of Lostness, dis-Orientation. Our lives decontextualised
I wish that I could sit down with Julian of Norwich and pour my heart out to her. Or Jesus Christ, I wish that I could sit down with Him and pour my heart out. Oh yeah. Huh?
Just this past Sunday I gathered with a group of folks reeling from revelations about a dear friends betrayal of his wife and church family. The stunned mind is an accurate description.
Jesus did go around healing a lot of blind people.
As I’ve been reading this series so far I sense this is a journey into my own life since birth. Where & how sin, or separateness from God, entered into my life. The ways are numerous. Separateness & lack of devotion to God is everywhere even among those who grew up in a Christ devoted home. There’s always lack in the world & in people yet we look to humans as our first representations of God. This is why I have great respect & realize the immense responsibility parents have in influencing their children. My parents failed, in many ways, at teaching me to turn to God & rely solely on Him so I took that failed reliance into the world. I demanded & expected others to fill in the gaps, the God gaps, that they left. Now I’m not blaming them for damaging me. They were damaged coming into relationship with me & hurt people, hurt people. Broken people, break people. God knew this about His creation when He made it. He didn’t make a bunch of equals to Himself. He created children & children needs their Parent. In this scenario though He IS the perfect Parent who never leaves a gap or fails at anything we need.
In the situation regarding the gaps my parents left, I’ve acknowledged their failings & the harm that caused me & have turned my unmet needs to my Perfect Father. This is a form of forgiveness, a pardon, let them off the hook for being God. I’ve turned my attention & focus toward God for all that I need & He has not let me down. He has made me wait patiently but never let me down. I have to fix my eyes & heart on Him, that’s my part especially in the patient part, which is a lot. I’ve just not found a better way. Looking to others & the world to give me something that only He can provide has been a bust. Also as a result of this forgiveness, or pardoning, I can love & appreciate others & the world the way God through Christ loves me. This is freedom. I’m grateful for this & other thought provoking writings that help me come back to Who my center is.
Bulls in shops stacked to the ceiling with the most delicate Limoges. Sin - which is a condition- is one supremely of Lostness, dis-Orientation. Our lives decontextualised
I wish that I could sit down with Julian of Norwich and pour my heart out to her. Or Jesus Christ, I wish that I could sit down with Him and pour my heart out. Oh yeah. Huh?
Just this past Sunday I gathered with a group of folks reeling from revelations about a dear friends betrayal of his wife and church family. The stunned mind is an accurate description.